Applied for a bunch of contact centre work. I feel like I’m going backwards, but trying to remind myself that it’s just so I can afford a bunch of driving lessons and then I can apply for more animal industry roles.
I’m gonna fucking cry.
You’re not going backwards cos you’ve got a goal in mind. That’s smart thinking.
Sometimes jobs are just a financial transaction. It’s ok. Be proud of yourself for getting out there.
Short term pain, long term gain. It’ll be worth it!
Just think about it as a means to an end. Once you’re on your Ps you’re outta there
We’re all out here just earning the dollars some days!
like the others have said, just keep your eye on the prize
Think of it as a stepping stone to getting what you need instead of it as a goal going backwards.
You need the income to get there so it’s just all going forwards and progressing towards it.
I know it can feel like a step backwards. And it’s hard not to think it is.
But you have a goal. The intention matters I think. There is a plan and this is a stepping stone :)
I’ve done the call centre thing too, in the past - not fun but gets you $. Just remember it’s a means to an end, and you’ll be moving on to something better in no time 💛
Ol’ girls new dietitian approved of the shit I’ve been doing food-wise so that’s a relief. Didn’t add anything really so that keeps things easy.
Wrote out a thing for ol’ boy as he goes with her to these things, basically weight / diet etc. over time pre / post op. Didn’t realise he was just going to print it out and give it to the dietitian. There was a lot of swearng lol.
Audition is on for tomorrow which is awesome! Playing 2nd guitar which is usually pretty fun.
Normally they have a bunch of songs already written and then you get the freedom to add your parts.
Excited!
Time for some thin Lizzy harmonies
That is so cool. 😸
So exciting! Tell us how it goes :)
he's dreaming
His little sweet face 😍
What a handsome smiling lad
🥰😻
Squish lol
Was up early and had a coffee and muffin from a cafe this morning. Muffin was still warm from being fresh out of the oven. Wining the day already.
Warm baked good and clothes straight from the dryer are two of the best experiences.
overdramatic
So it’s been about four hours since I took the meds and I had a psychology appointment. I started crying and couldn’t stop myself. I also couldn’t really form my words during the appointment and am thinking that’s just the crash. My psych thinks the psychiatrist did a bit of a dodgy job taking my history. I think it might just be more that I’m autistic and I don’t actually have adhd. If it’s just autism, there isn’t medication for that. My psychologist is wanting me to get an assessment done by her or another psychologist but that’s going to set me so out of pocket. I can’t get a review with the psychiatrist this month even though he said if I need assistance within 2-3 weeks, he will speak to me and won’t charge me.
This mental health system is fucked, and I’m not even acutely unwell. Or maybe it’s just these drugs where don’t actually know how they work. It seems like I’m just going to have to think my way into just being able to do shit to survive. Or maybe I just have to live alone and grow some balls.
If the psychologist is suggesting an assessment, go for it. They have knowledge and experience with neurodivergent people and their vibe sense may have picked up that you meet some criteria. Also it’s not either/or, people can have both autism and adhd. Throw in some trauma, depression, difficult family situation etc and it’s not gonna be easy. You are doing so well trying to get to know yourself and look after yourself. It’s not always a smooth road. But it will be worth it.
Thank you <3
so many hugs
can I suggest the book “When I Say No I Feel Guilty” , it gives you real examples of difficult family situations and how to say no
because sometimes our difficulties are just a lack of a skill set
I think having neurotypical expectations put on me and having a family who aren’t always the best at communicating contributes to some of my difficulties. But the ones that bother me the most like procrastination and emotional regulation are mostly a me thing I think. I think I do need to develop the resilience to move past these difficulties.
But that sounds like a good book to read. Thanks for the rec :)
I have found every small win helps every other difficulty
with a better skill set at recognising and handling dysfunctional communication coming from others we get less reactive, less frustrated , it becomes a them problem, not a me problem
I’m sorry you’ve had such a negative experience. Definitely get the review.
Good luck :)
After three months of procrastination I finally got around to writing an email requesting permission to put in my vegie garden. They are not allowed to say no without good reason, but I also requested permission to put in some permanent plants that they could. Fingers crossed - I believe it would add value to the property and they should say yes, but it’s also possible the landlords are vegetation hating idiots, so I just have to wait and see.
Spring will be here soon so it’s a good time to get garden beds established - I have lots of cardboard from moving set aside to go down as weed barrier, and will need to get lots of compost & mulch on top. I’m looking forward to having enough space to do large plants like pumpkins without having to train them up a support, and also looking forward to not having everything eaten by possums.
There was a $20 arch at Bunnings, so you could train the pumpkins over that and still plant stuff underneath. Unsure if bigger fruits would need supports though. (I trained mini pumpkins up stakes)
I might do that for a few things like cucumbers, but I actually have enough space on the ground here. I have probably twice as much space in the back as I did in the last place, and there are no overhanging trees from the neighbours to fight with so it’s all useable.
envy
That’s gonna be a great garden
why wouldn’t you be allowed to have a vegie garden? You are renting the land.
They are not allowed to say no to the vegie garden, so that bit’s not a problem. But I also want to put in some permanent trees & bushes which they could say no to (or could insist everything be removed when I move and restored to how it is now, which is effectively the same thing).
just put the big items in a big pot
I’ve had this phone for 5 years and the battery is starting to die faster… also voice control is randomly activating.
I don’t think I can afford another myself so when this finally becomes unreliable the next one will probably be a basic android from Colesworth (as the previous one was). And I’ll keep this plugged in purely as a tiny drawing tablet until it dies. Hate planned obsolescence
Can recommend the cheapo oppo one I got a while back. I think it was $150 thereabouts. A15 I think. Was only supposed to be a temp thing as new govt. apps wouldn’t go on the old iphone and needed those quickly… but it’s fine so I just kept it.
That sounds like a great option if it lasts well. I don’t have the ability to keep buying expensive ones!
Had it for a few months now and so far still going. Battery / camera isn’t great, not exactly ‘snappy’ either but honestly after this I just don’t see myself bothering w/ high end mobiles anymore.
you could always try cash converters on line or go in person
I dunno, anything there is probably stolen
it’s just people selling their old phones so they can upgrade, some people do that every year
the good thing is they have a returns policy 👍
I fell off the bike two weeks ago and I think my knee is up to riding again.
It’s super annoying because I was on damp wooden boards, knew they’d be slippery so I went slower, and fell anyway. The view was nice next to the lake-thing near home but next time it has rained I’ll stick to the road.
Work has provided soup today for us.
It was nice!
Toe still uncomfortable and a bit sore
Guess I’m resting up all weekend.
{{{{{{{{{ Duenan’s toe }}}}}}}}}}}}}
and still swollen.
just raise your foot as much as you can
and wiggle toes if you can to keep circulation going
Blood taken, now I can finally eat. I ate like it was my last meal before the fasting started last night.
Beep Beep 🚚
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Approved
Peanut butter, jam and banana sandwich please
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tea and crumpets with raspberry jam please
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thank you chef 😸
That was a fun week
I have come to the realisation that bread and pastry ain’t my friends and limiting them really does benefit me.
I had incredible back pain earlier this week and not feeling sluggish because of bread made recovery a lot quicker.
I’ll still dabble occasionally but yeah I’ve had enough of feeling shit.
If you can be fucked with specifics there’s the FODMAP routine to test dietary intolerances but it’s a bit of a drag, moreso if you’re eating with the family.
Nah I can’t be fucked. I’ve done my own experiments. For some reason toast doesn’t bother me but “raw” bread does. I feel on top of the world when I don’t eat much of it.
I know it’s not the butter because I slather that on toast. Pizza makes me feel shit almost immediately and the next day too.
It could be the yeast. Also fresh bakery bread doesn’t really bother me either but I am limiting that too.
Commercial yeast is a trigger for my gut. Its used because it’s cheap and gives consistent results, not because its good for you. I do make my own sourdough, and can cope with using normal white bread flour for that, and I’ve found that I can tolerate a little bit of the commercial white stuff if I preload in the day with some sourdough.
Yes. Yes!!!
If you get a piece of bread or bread roll and rip the crust off and squeeze it into a ball it’s almost dough again. That’s going in my gut and that’s why I feel shit and sluggish.
This.
Fodmap diets do suck. I restricted so many things and am still in pain. That said I’m a bit of a special case, there are plenty of things an otherwise normal person can still have.
All breads? There’s always pumpernickel!!!
I like rye bread but you can fuck off with your pumpernickel.
Hahaha
Dark sourdough rye?
I’d eat that.
I think Aldi does a version.
yeah, I’m reducing bread too, even home made bread
I’ve been experimenting with spelt flour, doing a 50/50 with white wheat flour and it’s not bad.
We’ve got this 👍
So I took the first dose of ritalin half an hour ago, and my resting HR has been between 85-90. It feels like my heart is beating out of my chest and that was only with half a tablet. I’ll see how I go for the rest of the day.
The first couple of days may feel like that. It will settle over the course of the day :)
I sure hope it does settle! :D it’s been great sitting down and having a HR of 100. I almost feel like I’m too wired to talk or sing properly haha
I felt the same and couldn’t eat either. It takes around a week or so to settle down and it can be a bit rough tbh.
Hopefully it settles down
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