So it’s been about four hours since I took the meds and I had a psychology appointment. I started crying and couldn’t stop myself. I also couldn’t really form my words during the appointment and am thinking that’s just the crash. My psych thinks the psychiatrist did a bit of a dodgy job taking my history. I think it might just be more that I’m autistic and I don’t actually have adhd. If it’s just autism, there isn’t medication for that. My psychologist is wanting me to get an assessment done by her or another psychologist but that’s going to set me so out of pocket. I can’t get a review with the psychiatrist this month even though he said if I need assistance within 2-3 weeks, he will speak to me and won’t charge me.
This mental health system is fucked, and I’m not even acutely unwell. Or maybe it’s just these drugs where don’t actually know how they work. It seems like I’m just going to have to think my way into just being able to do shit to survive. Or maybe I just have to live alone and grow some balls.
If the psychologist is suggesting an assessment, go for it. They have knowledge and experience with neurodivergent people and their vibe sense may have picked up that you meet some criteria. Also it’s not either/or, people can have both autism and adhd. Throw in some trauma, depression, difficult family situation etc and it’s not gonna be easy. You are doing so well trying to get to know yourself and look after yourself. It’s not always a smooth road. But it will be worth it.
I think having neurotypical expectations put on me and having a family who aren’t always the best at communicating contributes to some of my difficulties. But the ones that bother me the most like procrastination and emotional regulation are mostly a me thing I think. I think I do need to develop the resilience to move past these difficulties.
But that sounds like a good book to read. Thanks for the rec :)
I have found every small win helps every other difficulty
with a better skill set at recognising and handling dysfunctional communication coming from others we get less reactive, less frustrated , it becomes a them problem, not a me problem
overdramatic
So it’s been about four hours since I took the meds and I had a psychology appointment. I started crying and couldn’t stop myself. I also couldn’t really form my words during the appointment and am thinking that’s just the crash. My psych thinks the psychiatrist did a bit of a dodgy job taking my history. I think it might just be more that I’m autistic and I don’t actually have adhd. If it’s just autism, there isn’t medication for that. My psychologist is wanting me to get an assessment done by her or another psychologist but that’s going to set me so out of pocket. I can’t get a review with the psychiatrist this month even though he said if I need assistance within 2-3 weeks, he will speak to me and won’t charge me.
This mental health system is fucked, and I’m not even acutely unwell. Or maybe it’s just these drugs where don’t actually know how they work. It seems like I’m just going to have to think my way into just being able to do shit to survive. Or maybe I just have to live alone and grow some balls.
If the psychologist is suggesting an assessment, go for it. They have knowledge and experience with neurodivergent people and their vibe sense may have picked up that you meet some criteria. Also it’s not either/or, people can have both autism and adhd. Throw in some trauma, depression, difficult family situation etc and it’s not gonna be easy. You are doing so well trying to get to know yourself and look after yourself. It’s not always a smooth road. But it will be worth it.
Thank you <3
I’m sorry you’ve had such a negative experience. Definitely get the review.
Good luck :)
so many hugs
can I suggest the book “When I Say No I Feel Guilty” , it gives you real examples of difficult family situations and how to say no
because sometimes our difficulties are just a lack of a skill set
I think having neurotypical expectations put on me and having a family who aren’t always the best at communicating contributes to some of my difficulties. But the ones that bother me the most like procrastination and emotional regulation are mostly a me thing I think. I think I do need to develop the resilience to move past these difficulties.
But that sounds like a good book to read. Thanks for the rec :)
I have found every small win helps every other difficulty
with a better skill set at recognising and handling dysfunctional communication coming from others we get less reactive, less frustrated , it becomes a them problem, not a me problem