StudSpud The Starchy

Put a fork in me, I’m done.

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Cake day: June 13th, 2023

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  • I’m used to it now to be honest - been in this apartment for 5 years this month, and prior spent 1 year in a CBD apartment 😂 The trains and the horns, the tram dings, overnight construction, hooligans in the alley, occasional methheads in the alley, ambulances in the alley, music from Sydney Road - it’s all white noise to me now. The soundproofing in my apartment is actually really good considering its age, the outside world is barely audible and I’ve never heard my neighbours in their apartments, only when they are in the hallway.

    It’s funny, I find it difficult to sleep in quiet environments now, like camping or staying over in suburbia. Im much more hypervigilant when I can hear a pin drop 😂


  • You are always welcome always to vent and just get it all out here!

    It isn’t light or airy, no, but it doesn’t have to be. This is what is happening in your life and to you, and it is worth talking to people you trust - even if it’s just this forum 💜 I get the pain of watching your mum deteriorate, even though my experiences cause was different, and it isn’t easy to look after them. The chores are easy, the mental energy and internal stress it takes to just be present and witness to it is draining. I’m so sorry you and your mum and dad are going through this right now, I hope your mum is able to settle down now she is back home and will accept food. Sending you all my love and good vibes, if I could give you some of my mental energy I would do that too 💜💜💜



  • My neighbours 3 stories below me has recently had their first baby, and I’m pretty sure tonight’s Sydney Road doof doof bars and clubs aren’t the most favourite sounds for that babe - I can faintly hear the sounds of a baby crying over the heavy drums from the bar across the road 😬

    I hope they can find a quieter place at some point for their bubs and their own sanity!

    Edit: oh wow it’s 4am lol incredible least I have no plans



  • I think cats are special in their self-domestication. When they choose to lay on us or keep us close company, they know we need their love the most and it’s feels so utterly special and genuine. I truly believe if there is a reason humans evolved the way we did, it’s so we can be the guardians of life on Earth - pack bonding with animals and plants and objects is just what we do and when they love us back? It makes it all so worth it!

    So fluffy! I want to kiss their belly so much!




  • small lil "being-triggered" vent

    So my cousin got engaged over the weekend, she found herself a top notch bloke and she’s a star herself so perfect combo.

    I’m not jealous of that, I don’t care about being married or not and it isn’t important to me in any way - deep or superficial. I’m envious of how her mum is so happy and proud and keeps gushing about her - I just know that my dad just wouldn’t talk about me like that, and my mum isn’t in my life and she isn’t the type to care about my accomplishments either. I’m sad that no matter what I do, what I accomplish, or big (to me) achievements, I don’t have a parent who would talk about me like that, so proud and open about being proud.

    I’m so happy for my cousin, she’s a fantastic person and has been through so much - she deserves this happiness and her mum to gush about her. I feel bad for being triggered by my aunt’s love for her daughter - I guess I still have a long way to go to reconcile not having a parent be so openly loving to and about me.

    Just needed to get this out into the world, I can’t talk to my family about this, especially not now, and my partner doesn’t really get it as his parents are wonderful. I’m sorry.




  • Erin Patterson discussion/thoughts

    Heheheheh so I’ve been reading the deathcapdinner subreddit posts, and it’s surprising (or maybe not) how many people don’t know what “reasonable doubt” means, or are accusing Justice Beale of doing the defences job for them. Like come on, his instructions are par for the course for Judges, even my partner tuned it all out because he worked for the WA state court in a past life and it’s a super boring and long part of the process.

    They’re all like “oh she’s definitely guilty of murder” but forget that she is innocent UNTIL the prosecution PROVES her guilty. It doesn’t matter what we as laymen think, what matters is: did the prosecution prove her guilty of murder beyond reasonable doubt? If the jury finds the prosecutions evidence as not enough, then it doesn’t matter if she is actually guilty or not - the prosecution just didn’t find enough evidence she murdered them. I wouldn’t be surprised at all if she is found not guilty on some charges, or guilty of manslaughter. Having read the articles and listened to the podcast, there is definitely room for reasonable doubt she committed murder, in my mind.

    Thoughts?