It seems being in a fair amount of pain (frequently peaking to straight up ‘vomit and lie on the bathroom floor’ severe) is almost a daily thing at this point. I just want some answers and to actually treat whatever the hell is going on for me rather than waving it off as psychosomatic and being left to struggle with it using only the same things that aren’t working. It’s been so many years and it’s only worsening. I’m tired of living in constant pain and having my life stunted because of barely being able to do anything. Praying that the new specialists can be seen soon.
Ugh.
I’m going to skip this page on drawing the manga eyes as that’s not really the style I intend to pursue. I’m just speedrunning this book to get a very basic grasp on the more applicable things like figure drawing and proportions. Just to kind of shake me out of intimidation paralysis and to get more comfortable using a sketchbook as a tool, for learning and getting messy.
I’ve changed GPs and this one is good (if a bit time limited), I’ll definitely be discussing this there. I’ve also got some advocates now in dealing with the medical system. But fuck me… it was really just allowed to get this bad.
Still not feeling good at all.
It seems being in a fair amount of pain (frequently peaking to straight up ‘vomit and lie on the bathroom floor’ severe) is almost a daily thing at this point. I just want some answers and to actually treat whatever the hell is going on for me rather than waving it off as psychosomatic and being left to struggle with it using only the same things that aren’t working. It’s been so many years and it’s only worsening. I’m tired of living in constant pain and having my life stunted because of barely being able to do anything. Praying that the new specialists can be seen soon.
Ugh.
I’m going to skip this page on drawing the manga eyes as that’s not really the style I intend to pursue. I’m just speedrunning this book to get a very basic grasp on the more applicable things like figure drawing and proportions. Just to kind of shake me out of intimidation paralysis and to get more comfortable using a sketchbook as a tool, for learning and getting messy.
So many hugs.
And can I make a suggestion? Go to your GP and ask for help in coping with everyday life while you wait for better diagnosis and treatment?
because how you live is very important and it’s not something doctors will always think about
I’ve changed GPs and this one is good (if a bit time limited), I’ll definitely be discussing this there. I’ve also got some advocates now in dealing with the medical system. But fuck me… it was really just allowed to get this bad.
more hugs