Just watched as the local daddy magpie gave a swark at someone who overreacted, swung around and started jogging…so Maggie gave them a bit of a swoop. Guy jogged off shaken and then I went up to the magpie and got a swark too. Said my normal “hello Maggie”. We had a few quiet words and swarks back and forth and I wandered home.
Not gonna lie, I feel a little bit special as a chosen maggie friend.
Nice one - nothing soothes the mind more than hours on the open road.
Ok that is 1000x icker than I was thinking.
My wins /gratitude list today
✅ up at six after a good night’s sleep.
✅ Good food packed for work
✅ Yummy coffee is yummy.
Thanks everyone for the support yesterday. Despite feeling it was impossible I called in sick today and have spent the day sleeping (proper sleep not depression hiding I think) and on the couch listening to gentle music and journalling. Cleaned the kitchen. Haven’t eaten much but it’s good food. Drinking lots of water. About to go wash my hair.
My brain is exponentially calmer now. I wouldn’t say I am looking forward to work tomorrow but it’s not making me cry. I needed to just…stop.
Hopefully this is the circuit breaker I needed 🤞
Tomorrow - early start, good food at regular times, decent bedtime.
❤️ having little sancuaries of friendliness on the internets makes a big difference. thanks
Thanks mate.
I had a lovely day out with friends but struggled to get any enjoyment out of it, and to focus on the moment (very brainfoggy). Made me realise I’m further down the depression path then I thought. I’ve had a few big stressful things going on that have made me anxious and down. But it’s gone beyond external - haven’t felt this disconnected and …grey… for a long time.
I came home and went straight to bed - just felt completely overwhelmed. Have managed to make dinner finally by putting on a podcast for company. And that’s rice and dal so I’ll get lunch out of it too. I need to plan out my work week - it’s busy and I like to get ahead of it on sunday but I’m just burned. No I can’t realistically take a mental health day or three right now either (for reasons, trust me)
So. this week I will:
god, that sounds exhausting. And I need to realise it is exhausting - so I will use my ‘spoons’ for food, washing, sleeping, moving. And the work I have to do. That’s going to be it this week.
I’m going to post here to try to keep track. Hopefully it’s just from stress/burnout and I can get back out of the hole with a couple of weeks of care.
Yep was full on for five minutes
Oh yeah that is stressful. Sorry to hear. And yeah in general you should be ok if you watch out. If you get an email with a link don’t click it. Go to the website directly, or at east double check the email address and the website name before entering any details.
Don’t use public wifi (like cafes and stuff).
Just be mindful and it will be ok most of the time.
Wind be howling…yay for Saturday and knowing I don’t have to go out into it to work
Update:
Home…bathed. oodie on. Ginger tea in hand. See ya on Sunday world.
One row equals one serve??? I will be the judge of THAT cadbury
I have a catch up with some (nice) family this weekend but am otherwise free. I am seriously considering just being a big oodie couch gremlin for the day tomorrow. The world has been very noisy of late.
Oh no…I knew I should have worn my puffer jacket to work today. About to leave and head out into it
Sometimes it seems pigeons choose nest spots based on a dare.